Topic: Wayne is my HERO

I was able to go to the lawyer's office and sign papers so that workman's comp. will pay for Wayne's funeral bill.  I have had this problem since 2-17-10 the day that Wayne went to see Jesus.  I thought I had insurance through my insurance at work, then one month after the funeral, they called and told me I owe 15,000 dollars.  They expected this newly unwife was suppose to write a check, I live on 1057 a month.  It is finally paid. 

I still been having a hard time adjusting, I still go to counseling every week.
Last week when I went in, I had a question, what is Wayne doing?  People have told me that sounds crazy, maybe but I still want to know.  I know he is watching over me, because I sure have needed it.  I bought a book named, "Heaven", by Ricky Alcorn, it is great, it has answered some of my questions.  This reading is the most reading since Wayne went away, I always seemed to ADHD once I only read one sentence, this has been happening since Wayne went away.

I'm having some test ran to find out why I have anemia, guess where I have to go, to Wayne's oncologist office.  The first time there was no one there, but last week the room was crowded, it was hard to go back in where I had always taken Wayne for all his chemo.

Love to my Wayne for 36 years
I'm not a widow, I am a wife
We are only apart for heaven's sake
You are waiting for me at heaven's gate

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Oh, I am so very glad you got that bill taken care of, what a load off your mind.
OK, so you know by now what a believer I am in the beyond and I find that because of this I am doing so well with Teddy. Do you believe at all that Wayne is around or has visited you? I even have logged all Teddy's 'sightings'. There are about 28 in the soon to be 5 months. Have you ever heard of Sylvia Brown? She is a psychic who has written about 38 books but it is her first 2 that were important to me. Interesting and light reading. They are about the beyond and I feel they erased any fear of death I may have had and they have also helped me to understand the beyond. It just all made perfect sense to me.  I am with you on the ONC visit too. I go to the same ONC Teddy went to. It did feel weird the first time but it's OK now. I think you are pushing forward and you have come a long way. Please keep in touch, I care.

Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.

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Lainy, I have seen or sinced that Wayne was with me.  The first time was last year the first time I got the lawn mower out.  It took me 40 minutes to get the lock off, I had tried and tried, then I stopped and asked what would Wayne do?  I got the WD 40 out sprayed it down it opened and told the good Lord thank you and Wayne thank you too.  So then I climbed on top, I had already put the gas in, I tried to turn it on nothing, so I go to Wayne and God again, the next time I tried it started. 

The next time I could not find my bank card, I looked everywhere, I was at my whits end when I talked to that wonderful pair again, I went on the passenger side open the door, I happened to glance over to the drivers side there it was laying just under the seat.

I was watching TV the other day something funny came on, the first thing I did was to turn to tell Wayne about it.  This happened even this morning, that had a commerical about the school system in Baton Rouge, they were telling children they could be anything with education, they should a little girl she said I could be a doctor, our doctor and her sister who is also a doctor turned around, I started to tell Wayne but then I thought he must be watching from upstairs.

The end of last week I was looking for the title of our car, I had looked everywhere, I ask Wayne what he do with it.  He was always on the computer, since my daughter introduced him to E-bay, he was disabled and that took up his time during the day.  I looked in the top shelf, all the things that he had put up there were still there.  I looked at the second shelf, which I have looked at a thousand times, I found it.  I cried for a hourl, I know he is my guardian angel.  That is probably what he does, as per my question, he probably doesn't have time to do anything else.

Love to my Wayne for 36 years
I'm not a widow, I am a wife
We are only apart for heaven's sake
You are waiting for me at heaven's gate

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Oh my goodness! I am so happy that Wayne is all around you and that must give you a ton of comfort. I know, its not the same but its better than nothing! I too ask myself in certain situations, what would Teddy do or say. Teddy mostly comes to me now through music, like a song will play that meant something to us at the strangest times. Or a song we loved will come into my head for no reason. Keep an open mind on music, watch for pennies, lights flickering. It is so amazing and awesome and I feel such a priviledge to hear from Teddy. You do know that most people never have the kind of love in a lifetime that we were lucky to have, me for just 16 years and you for many more. We have to be happy that we were so blessed.

Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.

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I am a great believer that our loved ones can see us and even help us. I think they are probably busy doing other things too, after all, their Father has a great universe to care for. I spelled Randy's scent so strongly last week in our bedroom. I just breathed in as deeply as I could and enjoyed it so much. Then I laid on his side of the bed for just a few minutes and said a prayer of thanks for the visit. I think we must be open to these times with our loved ones. They mean so much.

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Could you ask Wayne to ask Randy what I did with our W2's? I can't find them anywhere and I used them to get the taxes done. Now the IRS wants copies and they are nowhere to be found. I go where all the other papers for the taxes are, but no W2s. I'd love for Randy (or Wayne) to let me know where I put those darn things.

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Hi Susan, I will also ask Teddy when he sees Wayne for dinner tonight at the Italian Restaurant. IF you already turned in the taxes they would have been stapled to the pages. If not, look through all the files you have or you will have to ask for copies, I guess. Hope you are doing well.

Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.

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I hope everything you ladies are saying is true. If I lose Tom I will be clueless about so many things. We have a farm, with tractors and greenhouses and a 100+ year old house. He grew up here and knows all of the secrets of this place. No one else can do the things he does. I lay awake at night and wonder what in the world I will do without him.
I'll be heartbroken and lost. I just want time to stand still!    Mary

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Mary, I am feeling your pain but please do not under estimate yourself. I took the liberty of emailing you....hope that is ok.  HUGS and Prayers!

Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.