Susan, I lost my husband and my mother in 9 months. My daughter is the only family that gives me comfort, and sometimes I think she gets tired of doing that. I have been seeing a couselor weekly, I don't know what I would do without her. I can be having a bad day, then I go in, most of the time I come out laughing. I told her that last summer I still had my mom, my daughter was not working at the time, this year no Wayne, no mom, just lonliness. The other morning I heard the alarm go off, I hurried up and turned it off, I didn't want to wake Wayne up, then I turned the only thing in bed with me was my dog, sleeping in Wayne's place. That one moment when I wasn't in reality made me happy, the real world took over then, got to get up and go to work. It is amazing how I felt in that one moment. Have you tried counseling it is a slow process, but you will fill better afterwards.
Love to my Wayne for 36 years
I'm not a widow, I am a wife
We are only apart for heaven's sake
You are waiting for me at heaven's gate