Topic: The waiting game
Here it is almost 4:00 in the morning and I havent yet been to bed. I had a scan on Monday and sleep has been evading me since. I woke up in the middle of Thursday night just crying. It doesnt make sense. I have been quite strong recently. There were days when CC wasnt a part of my thoughts-I had truly forgot. I was normal-if that makes sense. Then the scan happened and I remembered. And now I am so scared again. I feel terrible whining about it when others are in physical pain and not as healthy as I, but I just have to vent. I hate this system of scan and wait. I waited over a month last time to get my results! I will not wait that long this time, but I dont know when I will get them and this waiting is tearing me apart.
36 year old patient with buckets of hope