Charlene, my heart goes out to you. I can't explain it... sometimes it does appear that there is so much sadness around us that it is difficult to bear and it appears that we can't possibly handle another thing. Last year at this time my Dad was in very serious condition and I felt it was so cruel that everyone else was planning their Christmases, decorating their homes, and buying their gifts while we were watching my Dad slip away and were not even certain that he would be with us at Christmas. I look back now and see how trivial a lot of things are when compared to matters of life and death.
I know how very difficult it is. As difficult as it all was, one thing that gave me comfort was knowing I was doing my best for my Dad. I was a wreck when I wasn't around him, getting to work with swollen eyes, not sleeping, not eating because I was so utterly sad for what he was going through. As his advocate and his daughter, I found a strength I didn't know I had. I look back now and I feel as if I was carried through that time. I'm not even suggesting it was a Divine force that carried me, I feel it was the love my Dad and I had for each other. Because I loved him so I was able to walk along side of him the best that I could until the very end.
I send you prayers of comfort and peace for your heart. I also pray for the best possible outcome for your husband and your daughter's father as well.