Topic: It's been three months...
....since my heart was broken. My dear husband and best friend left me on Nov. 18th., 2011. It still feels very surreal. I think back to all of our 32 years together and I never once thought, even after he was diagnosed that this would really happen. Being a widow at 54 was never contemplated. As others have said in their posts, it's hard to imagine being "single' again when you've been part of someone else's life for so long. There are so many things to get used to, I don't know if you ever really can. I had surgery to replace my knee on Feb. 7th.I'm doing fine but I really miss Tom being here to help me through this. My kids and family have been great but it's just not the same. I miss him so much. I think it will be better when Spring comes but then I will be like Darla and have to greet customers and tell them Tom is gone. Everyone that bought plants and produce from us loved talking to him. Most local people already know but we have a lot of out of town "regulars" and I hate the idea of having to go through these emotions over and over. A relative brought me a story from Ladies Home Journal about Patrick Swayze's wife and her life since losing him. She thought our experiences were almost identical to theirs and she was right. His widow said after two years she is just starting to get up every day and not think that her life sucks. I honestly understand her sentiments. I just hope it is better in two years.
I hope everyone is doing well. I'm physically fine. Trying to get through therapy. I was my therapist's MIP last week, ( most improved patient). I need to get well soon so I'm very motivated! Take care all,
Love, Mary
