SENSITIVE: Brenda, I am reliving everything, right with you and of course it breaks my heart for you. You see, how they are still smart enough, with all that is happening to know just what to say when told they did something. Brenda, Teddy had that kind of agitation and I know it is not pleasant to watch. I would ask Hospice if they can try something else (ATIVAN DID NOT WORK FOR T) and how do we know some of it is not pain? I ask myself that all the time. On the other hand he may be fighting for something, like a certain visitor. Teddy bever fought the oxygen as it did make him feel better. Hospice has a booklet that describes what will be happening at several time frames and T followed it really closely. Don pulls out the oxygen and the last day for T, not saying Don is that close, he didn't even want his PJ's or sheets on. Guess he wanted to go as he came with nothing on. One sign of gettting close is picking at his clothes and covers. No one seems to know why some of them do that and of course talking to the beyond. Brenda, do NOT be afraid. It is a process and not to sound trite but my daughter and I felt privilidged to be a part of what we saw. One more thing. When the end is here there could be a loud chest rattle. I understand they have a patch for that now you might want to ask about that.
If you don't mind, I would like to post a poem here I wrote about 5 days before T passed. Please do not read it if it will upset you but at that time I wanted to let my feelings out.
Time is growing closer, I can see it in his eyes,
Time is growing closer, but we’ll have no sad ‘goodbyes’.
Memories abound from our precious moments spent,
To God it is, I’m sending, the most “precious” package sent.
These last few months of knowing, we’ve made a honeymoon,
In my mind a vision of an eternal, beautiful afternoon.
He is still my charming Prince, who taught me how to love,
And someday we’ll be together, in Heaven up above.
I will see him riding stars, I will see him in the moon,
And someday you will see us dancing to our favorite tune.
He will touch my face so gently, like he’s known to do,
It’s not goodbye forever, with memories bad or few.
All our love, my sweet one, is ours to hold so tight,
Until once again together on a mystical, magic night,
We will be again united to celebrate our dance around the sun,
And know that our eternity together, has only just begun.
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME! Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING