Topic: feeling guilty about feeling good
I was dx with ccc in August 2007. The symptoms were severe itching and jaundice, and a CT scan and MRI confirmed the dx of bile duct cancer. Since then, I've been through radiation combined with Xeloda, and am currently on Xeloda and Gemzar. I have a stent in place which seems to be doing its job. One thing that is kind of weird is that my tumor markers are in the normal range. A blessing is that my liver seems to be functioning currently at an almost normal range.
I feel good - in fact I have to remind myself that I have cancer and can't do some of the things that I want to do, like go skiing. Reading this board, I feel guilty about my continuing good health, but I want you to know that ccc, in some cases, may not be absolutely devastating to your health.
I wonder if it is possible that the prayer/faith/medical treatments have or can shrink the tumor so much that it goes away without surgery? I've really not altered my diet except to eat more fruit and veggies and stop drinking alcohol and cut way back on caffine.
I am trying to stay positive and hopeful for the future. At 45, I'm too young to die - and I owe so much money I can't afford to die!