"Someone to watch over me"

My Dad passed away in 2005, and we realized  that his 'Totem' was a Hawk, because shortly after he died, we (family) went for a walk in the woods along the river that he so loved, and this Hawk was just flying along with us. At various times hawks have swooped down in front of us.. and at my wedding- during the ceramony, 2 hawks circled above- not sure who the seocnd one was....... my best friend and i decided it was her mom who had passed away too. ( i was unaware at the time but i have pics to prove it!) Just the other day, while riding my bike, Hawk was following me... and i got worried about my mom... (but all was status quo) So YES! They are still with us and make visits!

Thank you, Lainy and mm.  I’m of the “I don’t know but I’ll try to keep an open mind” school and I’m really trying to keep an open mind over this.

I’ve been making “Memorial Cards” for Sue over the past few days.  We were given one when our Aunt died last year and Sue said “I want one of those”, so one-of-those was what I was determined she should have.  Mum chose the photo and I designed and made the cards.

Yesterday, I printed, signed and sealed the first batch, for delivery this morning to the friends in the two streets my house adjoins.

Last night was the first night I’ve dreamed about Sue since she died (or, at the least, the first time I remember dreaming about her).  In my dream, she was really keen to come with me as I delivered the cards.  I felt rather weird at first, delivering memorial cards for my late sister, when my “late” sister insisted on accompanying me – but I got used to it after a while.  My friends didn’t seem to find it as odd as I did and we had a great time.

At one point, I remember she was sitting on a friend’s sofa and her limbs kept fading in and out, as if she was about to disappear, but she forced them back into view.  At one point, she snapped at me; “stop watching me like that – I’m not going anywhere”, which friends who know Sue – either personally or through my posts – will know was something she said to me quite often in the latter stages of her illness.

When I awoke this morning, I delivered the cards on my own, but I know Sue was with me and I know she approved.  In fact I think she’s chuffed to bits.*

Love Julia

*Chuffed to bits = really pleased about something (http://www.effingpot.com/slang.shtml)

Love that dream Julia! Susan must have had,  and still does, a great sense of 'being'. I think it's great that she wanted to go with you to deliver the cards.

Julia,

I'm also a believer and am sure Susan was with you on your deliveries.  Love the thought that she was "chuffed to bits".     It is comforting to know that our loved ones are still near us.   No longer in a physically way as we would want, but in so many other ways.

Take care, thinking of you and your mum.

Love & Hugs,
Darla

Julia, that is awesome!  Your blog is now in my favorite's.   

I'll need to ask Rick how to post an image - I know it can be done, 'cos I've seen it done and there's an image link, but I just can't do it.  Gavin will understand how frustrated a gadget-freak like me is feeling at the moment

Here's a link to yesterday's incident.

http://lalupes.blogspot.co.uk/

I cried when it came out of the plastic bag with Sue's old photos (from the '70s, '80s and early '90s); a handful of old memories and a feather for reassurance.

Love you, sis xxxx

The bird/feather theme is an interesting one,Julia.I had the experience of 3 birds coming into the house during the night,the last one was an owl and it flew onto my bedside table about 3 oclock in the morning(Roland was up at the time,I was asleep but woke to find it in the house!.So now birds come in to the house in the day occasionally but I have never had them come in at night before or since that time which was a few weeks after Joel died.
                   and I am a cynical type of woman but the facts speak I think