Topic: time is coming to a close
I have been reading and posting for a year since my Tom was dx a year ago. He has had 2 chemo treatments and 4 embollizations and countless side effects and emergencies to the hospital. Through it all he worked full time, went on some trips with us, had a son's wedding and a wonderful Xmas. I guess we should feel lucky but it's funny life makes you greedy, you want more and more.
Tom has recently been scanned after starting 2nd dose of Folfox as he was gaining a lower extremity weight and feeling punky. The scan shows the tumors ( liver and lung mets) are pretty stable. The bitch of it all is the clots in the lungs. He has had a multitude of clots,obviously not controlled though hypercoagulated on Lovanox,and now they have invaded the vena cava. This is not good and we have to decide whether to let my active, funny loving husband and father of 62 go quietly or painlessly as these clots will permit him...or more chemo for unknown results and horrendous side effects...and for how much longer, if at all?
SO I guess the decision can wait another day, tonite I will climb in bed next to the love of my life of 38 years and hold him in my arms while I pray for a miracle. And then I can remember how lucky I was...