Thank you for your messages it is funny in a way but I get some sort of relief from response to my posts. Sometimes I feel my sister doesn't tell me the whole truth and I feel that is her right but in a way that makes me worry all the more. From the moment she was diagnosed I would do anything to change it. I have three young children who quite obviously don't know their Auntie is ill and they all love her so much and as childen are think she will be here for ever.
I don't feel I am the carer I should be, we live quite far away from each other and this prevents me seeing her and helping her as frequently as I would like. My children go to school, I go to work every day yet I know she is suffering and I should be there. What is the answer? I dont know, I continue to do the things with my children like I always have yet things are not the same as they once where. We have all changed , we of course have had fantastic news and I so want this to be the start of things to come.
My sister: although we fought as children has been the one that will support, advise me (she is so more educated than me) I was always the naughty one or at least the one that always got caught! She looked out for me at school and made sure I was ok and I was so proud she was my big sis.
I take her advice on work issues and all other matters and although I don't always agree deep down I know she is wise and I'm a bit of a fool, (I've never admitted that!)
I just want her to be ok and I now want to look after her!