I know how hard it is to lose a Mom. I lost my Mom to this monster of a disease April 3, 2009.
The pain is awful to bear and will come at you at unexpected moments. I can still be reduced to tears just passing someone wearing my Mom's perfume.
I can promise you at some point the good memories will start to overtake the bad and it WILL get easier but I can't tell you when. Everyone grieves in their own way and in their own timeframe. Grieving is the hardest job you will ever tackle but you must find your way through it for that is what your Mom would want for you.
Take your time and grieve. Remember if you had not loved so much and so deeply this would not be as hard. Come here often....believe me someone is ALWAYS up and awake on here. We truly understand and have been and still are there.
Be kind and gentle to yourself. Surround yourself with those that really care...unfortunately you may find yourself surprised at who these people turn out to be. My "best friend" once told me to just "get over" it. That all of my tears would never bring my Mom back. It was my Southern Upbringing and fear of prison that kept me from acting out what I truly wanted to do......
We are all here for you and we understand. Start looking for your "pennies from heaven"....( you can search my posts for the story)
Hugs and prayers... You are a wonderful legacy that your Mom leaves behind....
My Mom lost her one year battle with CC on April 3, 2009.
"A prognosis is simply an audit of how truly precious each day is. Live each day to the maximum, celebrate what was, and what is - Don't spend your life looking forward to what will or might be." .... words of wisdom from my beloved son on hearing of his grandmother's CC prognosis.