Here's more. I got the results of my cancer bloods. Everything is down. My ca19-9 is at 62 which is the lowest it's ever been (its been as high as 1074). My alphafetaprotein is 2.8. The only time it's been lower is one year ago today. My CEA is at 2.7. It has basically run from 2.3-3.5 most of this journey.
My alkaline phosphates is high at 160. But it hasn't been under 130 yet. And my bilirubin is basically a constant 0.9. Red, white and platelets are all still a little low, although only platelets are outside "normal" range. Everything else looks good.
And, yes, I spent time licking my wounds. Even got drunk last night, although I know alcohol is one of the worst things for you. And I didn't get drunk enough! Just 3 drinks, but it prob put me over the limit. Today I hid. Tonight I go back out in public with my public face (which stayed home last night) and work and play poker and sing.
And, on a side note, one of my new songs is Mary Chapin Carpenter's I Feel Lucky. It was playing on the radio as I drove to the station. And I rerouted around a huge traffic jam and made the train with 1 minute to spare! It was a "lucky" morning and I was so sure I was going to hear good news.... BLAH!!
Don't just have minutes in the day; have moments in time.