Topic: My Sweet Precious Dad Has Passed
My father passed away on Tuesday March 19 at 1:50pm.....He was admitted to Hospice In Patient on March 11. We could not manage his anxiety at home and he agreed to go. He was still aware but not talking to us anymore. On Friday March 15 early morning he fell to his knees in pain as he could no longer fight this battle. He very rarely complained of pain and that night was the worst we had experienced he then was given Pain meds every hour until the pain was managed, by Saturday morning he could not eat as he could no longer swallow. His pain and anxiety meds had to be given with needles in his arms and his Leg. From this point forward it was truly devasting to see what he went thruough. We were then told it could be a few hours to a couple of days before he passed and to be prepared. From day one that he was admitted we never left my dad alone my mom, brother and sisters we would rotate around the clock to be with him. My dads mom, 2 brothers and sister were also there around the clock once we were told it could happen at anytime.
On Tuesday morning we all rotated to go home and shower. My mom brother and sisters we had all made it back by Noon...There was a volunteer who was playing the harp we asked if she could play a song for my dad, she started with amazing grace it was so peaceful I can't even explain it she played a few songs for us we cried as we knew his time was getting very close. Shortly after the volunteer played the harp about 12:40pm my dad made a loud sound as if he had pain when he breathed in right after that his breathing completley changed he had no rattle, they became quiet and calm almost as if he finally began to breath with no pain and peacefully as he took his last breath at one 1:50pm.
Words cannot describe how scared I was as to what I was about to experience with my dad but his last hour so peacefully that even though I cried because he was gone it was a true previlige to be with him in his final hours.
We had an uncle who also passed while my dad was in hospice my grandmothers brothers his viewing was on Tuesday at 6pm my dad passed at 1:50pm, we attended as my cousins came to support us after their dad had passed on my dads final days it was extremely difficult. But if my mom and grandmother were strong enough I had to be there for them.
Now as we are planning my Dads Funeral I am so scared, nervous and I feel that I will not be able to bear the pain of saying a final Good Bye next week.
I miss you Dad....But I know you are in a better place, cured and free of pain!
