Topic: TO all Moderators on this Board and all my Friends Here
thanks for helping out while iWas absent for a couple of weeks.
First, I am fine, as Lainy's. poem quoted below;
I asked for strength.
God gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for wisdom.
God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity.
God gave me brawn and brain to work.
I asked for courage.
God gave me dangers to overcome.
I asked for patience.
God placed me in situations where I was forced to wait.
I asked for love.
God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors.
God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted.
I received everything I needed. By Aaron Hoopes.
My cancer has returned and resection at this point is not an option at least for now. So if you or the caretaker hear about this DX. You will like me, at that moment , after hearing such a disappointment answer, my heart sinks almost down on the floor for a while, I don't know what to do, and hopeless for a moment since I have learnt a lot from this web site and know the odds are not in my favor. So,I ask for a living will and power of attorney for medical directive,oh, and a five wishes to fill out at home. But after a while, when I think about Lainy's poem. I think, let me get a couple other opinions first, I wrote to University of Maryland for an IRE consult; I drove to a nearby hospital that I have worked for and make an interventional radiologist (IR) consult hoping that they could do something for me.( my new tumor is located near the diaphragm and very close to the only major hepatic vein left, so that is the reason for no resection, last time ( the second resection 18months ago, the IR doc. said no for RFA, ) ; so my hope was not that much better for that procedure can be done this time.
Well to my surprise, she the IR doctor said she can do the RFA this time along with chemoembo and one month later, she may do a sectional radioembo too.i will discuss the use radioembo on me more with her before the procedures since the result is not that great among our members.
BTW , Dr Roberts At Mayo would like me to send the Scan discs to him for a 2nd opinion before their multidisciplinary team. I did not ask for that, I just want to donate my tissue to them just in case resection is possible. He is very kind to personally offer this 2nd opinion for me, He also asked for my blood sample , so thanks for everyone who involved in this process for me. At least physically I can do something actually may be of benefit down the road to benefit others who will come after me in addition to what I am doing now on this message board.
At the end, what I try to say is ,yes, this cancer is tough, and most of the time this disease will throw a few curve balls at you, it is tough to swallow, but, as long as you try the best you can and appreciate the friendship and love of your family and friends, keep an open mind and a positive outlook of your future,enjoy whatever you can , keep up to date of knowledge about this cancer , do not force yourself to accept what other people tell you,( that is including me, remember ,i am only a patient like you after all.);and follow what the Holy Spirit will guide you if you are a Christian. Seek spiritual comfort what ever your religion is; Then some how ,some where, you will always be with all of us no matter what the outcome will be.