Hi Lisa! My husband and I believe and know beyond the shadow of a doubt that God is now and forever will be....before Lee got his diagnosis in Feb. of this year....his faith was "iffy"...he was definitely a believer, but would not surrender his life to Him...ya see, Lee is a control freak...and as long as he knows that he's in control over everything and I mean everything...his stress level was zero...and he was ok with life....it was no longer than a week after being in the hospital and undergoing four procedures with no success...he seemed to have let go and let God...it was super scary for us of course because he runs his own trucking business and I teach...and we found ourselves taking a leap of faith and letting God do the work for us...since than our community has come together and supported us in unbelievable ways...they raised $7,600 in four hours at a local restraunt, ourinsurance has paid every penny of every procedure including mileage and lodgeing to and from Minnesota, my school raised over $1000 in coins for us, our church has helped us finacially, emotionally and of course, spiritually, people we don't even know have sent us monetary donations in huge amounts, friends come and pull our weeds, "kindnap" me for a girls night out, I could literally go on forever in the ways that God has provided for us....and you cannot tell me it is because of anything else! God is working through these wonderful people and blessing them all at the same time.....it's not to say I don't ask why, or cry myself to sleep at night, or wonder if my prayers are bouncing off the ceiling, it's shortly after I start to wonder when a still small voice is whispering "I love you...I'm with you...and all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord." It's when you don't feel His presence is when I believe He is lifting you up, carrying you so you don't fall and stumble because we have already won the battle...Jesus did it for us...we are victorios every day because of Him. Lee stood up in front of 300 people before we went to Minnesota and came back to start his chemo...never, and I mean never would I have thought my husband would stand up and give testimony in church to let everyone know about his wonderful Savior and how he changed his life forever. To this day, Lee will tell you that if he got cancer in order to come to the Lord, then it was all worth it! Keep the faith! We will pray for your healing, strength, courage and peace!