Thanks so much for your prayers. I pray for you all everynight too.
I really hope there is good news with the ct scan but John is fading away and I want you all to know that I watched my Mom die from cancer so that is why I am praying for no pain.
I watched that movie the other day "P.S. I Love You" and that is the type of love I have for my husband. I want only that he not suffer!
Believe me, I still pray that God heal him every night, only now I add the words That if God decides to take him do it as painlessly as possible.
Yes I am at the bottom of the barrel as far as hope goes. I am tired and sad and everything else that goes with cancer.
I went to spend 4 days with my daughter and grandson because he graduated high school and as happy as that should have been, I felt totally disconnected to my family. Their life is happy and looking forward to new things, ( as it should be ) but all I can see is an empty house and sadness and lonliness in my future. John is their step father so they have a different way of thinking of him.
They are more concerned with me but they can never really know the utter
anguish and pain I am going through.
Well I've run on long enough. I thank each and everyone of you who pray for us. I love you all as family.
God bless and heal us all,