Hello Gigi, I just replied on your other post, saw that one first.
Dianne, I am so sorry you are not doing well. Have you thought about getting a little boost from your GP? Just thinking, you DID agree with what your Sister said. Guess I never fully realized how much comfort I get from being a believer. I know that has gotten me to this point. It's 2 1/2 years for me and I just cannot fathom the time has gone that fast. I only had Teddy 16 years and I wish it could have been for centuries but for 16 years I am extremely grateful to have had that kind of love. Try to keep thinking all the good things as you adjust to your "new normal". Don't know if you saw this but I wrote it a couple of months after T passed.
How Are You Doing?
Everyone asks me how I’m doing since you went away,
With a smile on my face I answer, “I really am okay”.
Matter of fact its very hard but I promised to be strong,
Until the time we meet again, in your arms where I belong.
In the morning when I wake, once where there was warmth all night,
There’s nothing but an empty space and a pillow to hold tight.
Our closet now holds all my clothes it still looks kind of strange,
I try to make it look like more and constantly rearrange.
When I’m in the kitchen and working at the sink,
Many times I stop and this is what I think…..
If Teddy was here he’d grab me to give a little cue,
That he was about to hug me and say his, “I love you”.
No more are the corny jokes that grew longer by the year,
What I wouldn’t give now for just one more, to hear.
When someone calls, your message is still kept on the phone,
That way no one knows I am really home alone.
When day is over and dinner is eaten by one,
No more thank you-s for the meal well done.
Can’t find anyone to scratch my back,
There’s just a big hole here, a hole of midnight black.
But, how am I doing? I’m doing okay,
I know that you would want it that way.
And I know you are with me morning to night,
Still watching over me, that every things all right!
Teddy ~In our hearts forever~ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING
Any suggestion I offer is intended as friendly advice based solely on my own experience. Please consult your doctor for professional guidance.