Sorry to hear how things are going. We have been there with the blood infections....Mark had three of them after his surgery. I swear we lived in the hospital this summer.
I am with Lainy about the Hospice. There is so much that they can offer and it is so much better to start when you are feeling better then when it becomes a crisis. It becomes about quality of life...which can kind of be a relief when you are battling so hard against anything. If nothing else listen to what they have to say then make a decision when you are ready.
There is a lot of support they can offer. Nursing services to help you not have to go in the hospital or the doctor. Spiritual services which is non-denominational. Social worker to help with any needs that you might have. Bath aide to help when you can't do it on your own. Medicare (Home health and Hospice's governing agency) requires them to offer complementary therapy....ours offers massage, aroma therapy and music for relaxation plus volunteer hours that can come and sit with you so family can get away. Another agency I know of offers Reiki therapy. There is also a respite benefit that gives you/your family a longer break if needed. My hospice also offers inpatient hospital admits for symptom control such as if they pain gets out of control or nausea. They will work with you doctor but they have their own doctor that can assist with care if needed....you always have someone who is in your court.
If you don't feel that you are ready for Hospice you may look into a home health referral which can assist with keeping you out of the hospital by coming and seeing you at home and monitoring you closely.
Hope this helps and realize that any decision you make is the best one for you.
Any advice given is based on my experiences and should not be substituted for any medical recommendations. Please speak with your provider before making any changes.