Topic: Good Bye and Thank you
It's been 2 weeks since my belovéd Peter was taken by this terrible disease. Today I am hurting deeply. Up to now there has been so much going on - 4 months of the terrible illness with the last 2 days been worse that standing at his grave, house full of people, visitors, keeping his business on-going, answering emails and then the decision to clean out his clothing so that someone else can make use of it. And now today..... I have mixed emotions of anger at the disease, at the medical world who dont seem very interested in this cancer, at myself for not been able to do more to help him in his suffering, and just generally that this happened so quickly and we had so little time to comprehend what was happening and no time to do anything more together before the cancer took control.
Thank you to all of you who offer advice, made suggestions and generally gave words of encourgaement. This was much appreciated.
I have tried to read some posts on the discussion board, over the past 2 weeks. But it hurts to read all the symptoms and suffering others are going through, which are so familiar and still raw in my memory. And therefore I have decided to leave this group. Should I feel stronger later, I will probably return and try to be an encouragement to others. But for now, please forgive me... I do not want to have anything more to do with CC.