Dear Patrice, Iv'e been there and done that and I still do for a few days at a time. Then my wife valerie will ask me if I'm going to shave today or make a comment a hot shower will make you feel more relaxed and comfortable or she'lll offer to run me a hot bubble bath. I've always put it quite blunt and simple and I guess this post shouldn't be any different. Not shaving or bathing is a classic for someone depressed and angry. I can't blame him, It is the way he feels and really doesn't have much control over it. Now that it is winter and less day light depression can even get worse. I always say to myself I can't be bothered or I'm not going out who cares? When I was down and out for the count during some of my chemo treatments, my wife would give me a nice warm sponge bath. It was great. I'm rambling Patrice, but the bottom line is medication for depression may or may not help. It is up to him. But depressed or not, dying or not I will not subject my loved ones too my raunchy Body odor. I have to much respect and dignity to allow myself to smell like trash and subject others to it. You can't fight with him about it ,but you can be honest and tell Dave You love him dearly and would love to cuddle and hold you close but just cant'. Let him know you will be more than happy to sponge bathe him if it come s to that. Also let him about getting scabbies he surely don't want to be sratching and itching also let him know it affects others who live or visit the house. Patrice Dave's self- esteem is little to none. I don't know your family dynamics Patrice but as much as it hurts I would sleep alone unless he keeps clean, You don't need to come down sick. I would expect my wife to do the same if I ever decide to do that to her. I guess I would stand my grounds and put clean sheets on the bed and let him know ahead of time he will sponge bath at least if he don't want to shower, grow the beard if you want but wash it. I guess maybe a little comprimising is in order. It comes down to you can't really force him to do anything. It's Dave himself who has to say to himself , this #$@% disease ! and then decide if it is going to control his dignity and respect of others. I think if he understands he can still make some decisions and this mean disease will never have total control regardless of the outcome. I wish there was a magic wand Patrice. Darn, he has to feel useful and loved and still has some control. Dave, I'm in the same boat but I'll be #$%#$%%$# if this disease is going to rape me of my integrity and dignity! I opologize if I put it on to heavy but it's how I truly feel. I truley understand the ins and outs of depression but also understand our minds are more powerful than we realize! Wheter we go tomorrow or next year I'd rather leave spelling of Irish Springs than week old trash.
God Bless You both, It's Tough!
P.S. Patrice .. You know after I read this post , I said to myself I was pretty outspoken and cruel. Please believe me the best intentions only were in my mind plus a little anger as Dave did't ask for this anymore than I did. Please remind hind him he is fighting a battle of a bigger war that we still do have the hope of winning.
Take it to the Limit,One More Time! (Eagles)