Well, here we are.....3 weeks minus 48 hours......and Norbert is still in the hospital. They're talking about releasing him on July 24th. Not soon enough for Norbert.
I've done a lot of reading on this site in the last 3 weeks. The stories both heartbreaking and joyous. I feel like I have gotten to know many of you over the last few weeks. As if for the the first time since coming to the site, I was listening instead of talking.
I'm so jealous of those of you that are able to go on for years or find it early. Not that I'm not happy for you, but I'm still jealous just the same......if that makes sense.
Lainey, I think it was you that had a desmoid tumor.....I also had a desmoid tumor removed from my side about 8 years ago at Mayo, MN. Followed by radiation. I never gave it a second thought after getting it done, until now. It was because of my experience at the Mayo that I wanted Norbert to go there. And in the end I felt cheated because of the way they wrote him off. I get angry when I read stories from many of you how the Mayo helped you....yet they did nothing but send us home empty handed with no hope.
Funny how when something like this happens all of a sudden we're not invincible anymore. It no longer is something that only happens to someone else.
I liked the idea of someone suggesting years ago a way to search everyone here.....kind of a searchable database. I tried finding others in our shoes here in Michigan. Couldn't seem to figure out a
good way to do it.
Anyway, Norbert got transferred to inpatient rehab last week. He does OK when he doesn't feel that the therapists are talking to him like a 4 yr old or that they're giving him "stupid kid" games. Unfortunately, he had multiple strokes to the right side of the brain that left his left side weak. He also ignores looking to the left so he bumps into things and is not always steady on his feet. So, of course, the therapists are trying to make him acknowledge his left side. He just doesn't like the way they're going about it and doesn't always cooperate. This is so disheartening to me and I try to explain it to him. He seems to understand, but he's angry and takes it out on the therapists for trying to do their job. Not sure how to handle this.
The Dr's have told me the stroke was caused because he has cancer. They said when a person has cancer they are more prone to having strokes because of the cancer. Has anyone ever heard this before? Norbert was on blood thinners for years and still had a stroke, which makes me very scared.
Before he got here, he was taking zofran for nausea from chemo. Oddly enough, he didn't have nausea or vomiting during chemo. It started after the stroke and has had it ever since. It makes it hard for him to eat. He also keeps running low grade fevers that they can't find any cause for. In reading through this site, I remember reading that a lot of CC patients run unexplained fevers, so I'm guessing that I shouldn't be too concerned with it. As far as the nausea and vomiting, I don't know if this is cancer or stroke related. Hiccups are another one that he gets so often and sometimes leads to vomiting.
Going home will be a challenge we hadn't thought of until yesterday. I thought being hit with CC was a big blow but I never thought about the impact the stroke was going to have on the entire family. When we get home, Norbert will need 24/7 supervision. It will be mostly myself with our sons helping out when they can. Just when I thought things couldn't get worse, they do.
So, Norbert has had an internist, a cardiologist, a neurologist and an oncologist seeing him here while he's been here. Two of the four Dr's have mentioned hospice to me. I understand and appreciate the oncologist for telling me he wouldn't recommend chemo to a patient who barely has the strength to get out of bed, but how do we know that he won't recover quickly and regain much of his strength? And how do we know that he won't want to continue with the chemo? Maybe its just me, hoping and wanting him to be here by my side for years to come. But as I mentioned before, I would respect whatever decision he makes, no matter how heartbreaking. He's always been my rock and I can't imagine being without him. Although, I know deep down that everything will be OK.
Just one day at a time.....that's all I can handle right now.
One Day at a Time.......One Moment at a Time
Norbert and Olga