Topic: New CT scan for John
Well we have a Ct scan Monday and see the oncologist Tues.
John is skin and bones now, sleeping almost all day and night.
They've doubled his pain meds and they seem to be doing the job. It's kinda funny though, he has no jaundice! He just seems to be wasting away from the cancer itself.
My Mom died of cervical cancer with mets to everywhere and she died like John is, just slowly wasting away. I thought he would have jaundice though.
John is still in denial and I'm really dreading the oncologist telling him she's putting him in hospice. He is so weak he just can't take anymore chemo.
How do I help him? I just want to cushion him and know I really can't but I love him so much and can't do anything to make this better.
Please just pray for him that he goes easily knowing we all love him and it's ok to go. He's an amazing man who is more afraid of me being alone than his own death.
I love you all and Gods blessing on each and everyone of you,