Topic: Update on John
Just got back from the oncologist and it's very bad news as I suspected.
Johns cancer has come back with a vengence. He has more large tumors in his liver, it has grown extremely large in his pancreas.
The Dr. thinks he should be in hospice but John is refusing to give up. The Dr. has given him a chemo in pill form he takes daily, Tarceva. She explained it has only a 10-15 % of stabilizing the cancer growth.
Dr. Nelson is going to check him in two weeks to check that he has no bad reaction to the drug.
My heart is absolutely breaking. It could be as short as a few weeks until he passes. He's lost another 12 lbs in 3 weeeks!
I'm trying to stay calm and act very positive with John but I can hardly keep from breaking down. On top of everything else I have no life insurance to pay for his funeral, I asked his brother for help and was told he didn't think he could because he had put a big chunk of money on a "new toy for himself".
OMG, I don't know how much more I can take. I feel so totally alone. All my family is out of state and don't have the means to help me.
Does anyone know of an agency or something in California that can help me?
Please please someone help me find help. I don't know where to turn.